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Tuesday, September 12, 2006 9:00 PM
090906 everything seemed wrong.Office,surroundings, people, cake everything.
played monopoly with the rest.
lost my drive. lost myself.
but i stayed strong. not showing the normal side of me
had to control myself but sstill i blew it.
then it happened.
100906 went to sentosa with the rest
the morning where everything went wrong.
anger and revenge took over me.
traumatised? nopez. shock was the word.
she was lost.the sight of her i've never seen.
Dissapointed at them.
Icarnt take it anymore. seriously.
110906
everything matches.
puzzles solved. scored 100 points for that.
though i dun see the point in it.
im just tired. i just wanna die.
dun force me.dun influence me.
bee..im sorri kay. i carnt take it anymore.
i really dun see the point of it all..
all they said were true. now i dun care!
i dun give a shit! heck! just leave me alone.this is just not me.
This year full f shit. lies.paranoia.pressure.hypocrites.backstabbing.
And you thought they were there for you.
they are just making use of me. ha ha.
thanx. but its okay. i realised. i still stayed strong.
But i carnt help but lie to myself everydae.
I hate it. i dun wanna be me anymore.
I wanna be the old me
the tentrum carnt be bothered me. bottling up is killing me.
I crnt help it.
how many times did i tell you?
dun apologise. PLEASE!
its not your fault. bee! dont do this to me.
Im jut asking you for one favour.
a favour i know you can fullfill.
favour that i wont forgive myself if u dun fullfill it. Please bee...
just once. i dun wanna hurt you anymore. i want you to be strong.
pLease. Thankiu.
nobody to turn to. nobody will understand.NOBODY
how i wish i can just e deleted from this werld.
I dun wanna even exist in hitory. i just wanna disappear.
Last entry for the blog. Last blog that im ever gonna update!
Last week of pressure. Last week of the new me.
Last in everything!
dead.
