so.. today's the release of the A level results.
Jun long's gotten back his results.
and so did my dearest Cicak..

I was so happy for jun long. he got AAC!
i was like WOW! at least that qualifies him for NTU!
Not bad uh. he's smart larh!!
My tutor.. haiz.. im gonna be off without my tutor after april.
he's going for NS..
he said, "okay! im donee! i'll wait for you. quick!"

Dearest darling. dont worry about your results.
there are many more chances for you!
stand up and stay strong! its not the end of the world yet.
*smiles* HUUUUGGGGSSSS! Tight!!!

so.. my school did improve.
however, the percentage of pases for management dropped by 10%
if im not wrong. haiz....

The whole idea of the a level results woke me up a little.
and guess what?! im still not doing anything about it. mom said that, theres no more time to fool around. eventhough my a levels is next year, im still taking 3 subjects this year. i've got to soo catch up to persue what i wanna achieve! haiz. stressed out? nah. im still slacking! haiz. me and some classmates were talking about it on our way home. most of us had the same aim. and most of us agree that, at the rate we're going, we wont even qualify ourselves for any university.
Haiz. what a "motivation".

I dont want to be like some of my seniors now, drop out after year 2. cause seriously, its kind of a waste? but i also dont just want to make it. i want to score like crazy. i need to prove oh soo many people. Many challenges overpowered me while i was in M.I. people look down on me just because Im in M.I. They say, " why did you even get stress over your exams? you should take it easy since yours is a 3 years course."

i guess they just dont understand. I finally realise, A levels is far more different than O levels. every internal exams we take, its like o levels. especially our Promos. A levels is the combination of taking O levels like what? 6 times at the same time? exaggeration? hmmz.. i think not. 1st year was the heaven year where teachers said that we're surpose to clear it easily. the hard part comes when we're in year 2. we're too used to the system of the exams being easy that when they rephrased and made us think again, everything we learnt just burst away. i realised this after my management results. as you can see! im freaking pissed over the fact that i flung my management. ouh well.. i shall not make such a big fuss out of it.

I want to maintain how people like Jun Long manage to maintain. BUT HOW?!
grrrr....this means that i cant go party and go out often. that's something that i soo have to get use to. can i start after april? would it be too late? hmmz.. okay. now im stressed out!

I've had my time table planned but never followed.
i feel that its ridiculous for me to study during the weekdays.
But its ridiculous for me to study only during the weekends,
cause by then it'll be too late. help anyone????

I badly soo need aN ACCOUNTS tutor to consistently bug me to do my work.
I need someone to consistently breathe down my neck and push me just to get my work done. thats the only method to make me study consistently.
mom stop breathing down my neck ever since i was in sec 3.
hmmz.. i wander if she would still want to continue. haha.
But I always get annoyed when she does that. haha.
How?! BOLEH JADI GILA!
haha. i need my supplies! im broke! im cashless! im dieing! shit larh..!