again and again they ask me,
"eh. what happened uh?"
all i could answer was, "dont know... *shurgs*i dont care anymore"
i poured my hearts out to her
it was nice. REALLY i swear it was like such a relieve!
she said, "haiyah.. all these are just rubbish. just ignore."
hmmz.. i tried my very best to but lets just put it this way,
its FUCKING painful okay.

To think that i was a fool in this whole thing.
To think that i trusted you like FUCK
but the good think was!
i wasnt as dumb.
I dont care if you wanna treat me like an invisible piece of shit.
i dont care. but please!
dont make some assholes mock at you
just to prove to me something which is not true.
Not that i dont trust every word you said.
Not that i trust them either.
ouh well... lets just put it this way.
iM still waiting...
All those words you said? haha
i guess its just the biggest dissapointment ever.
seriously, i swear, if i were ever to have it recorded on tape.
i'll personally deliver it to you.
Just for you to mock at me...
I feel like a fucking loser for the 1st time ever.
SERIOUSly.. no kidding....

I dont need to stick with you 24-7
I dont even wish to stick with you 24-7
I understand of your own commitments.
but please larh.
Turn the tables around if you want to.
BY all means have the honours.
im just playing the game back at you.

You know me.
i know you too well.
Now now. forget it. forget about everything.
i've deleted them all.
dont hasitate..
lets start like how we even know that we existed.
Nono..
just start of as me not even existing.
haha.
i guess its meant to turn out this way. =)

Im fucking pissed!
I want my shots! i want my darlings! i STILL WANT MY PARTY!!!!
FUCK! i want them bad.
not because of this fucking thing.
But im jUST Fucking pissed!


Darling! where are you man!!!
Where are you when i need you ass!!!
QUICK! get out of camp!!!!
I wanna see you FAST!!!!

My bitches!!!!!!
I want a girly BITCHING day out.
Sunday????? im not werking!! thursday???
I end half day!!!!
But i dont wanna do the bitching.
I just wanna listen and gett high!
hahahaha. cancancan???? please!!!!
LOVE! LOVE!