i thought i could handle it.
but i just cant. i looked at him.
i just cant make myself do it.
Yes FOR THE first time!
its kind of difficult.
DO NOT ASK ME WHY!

He made me feel guilty for once.
he made me soo tensed up when i shouldnt be,
we are soo different from each other,
there's no way it will be.....
Then he looked into my eyes and said,
"Nisa.. im serious"
knowing me! i just laughed my ass off...
and said, "haha.. yes!yes i know! im serious too.. so?!"
no matter how fake it could be,
i laughed and struggle...
from 9pm till 1130pm...
Finally decision made.
did i regret? or did i make the BIGGEST mistake?
IT WAS A BIGGEST MISTAKE indeed!

now im trying to pull away.
haha.. yes i am pulling away...
i cant stand it. i cant imagine it. ahhaha
Life is funny! its unpredictable!

AM I LOSING MY TOUCH???
OUH PLEASE.. I DONT WANNA LOOSE THEM JUST YET!
LET ME JUST CONTINUE HAVING FUN WITH MY LIFE!
PLEASE....!!! IM BEGGING YOU... =(