I couldnt sleep last night.
I was panicking for the stupid malay paper.
I had no notes.
I realised i just threw my notez away.
I called him.
I complained.

He kept quiet and listened.
For the 1st time he just kept quiet.
Until i told him i wanted to work at night.
He got supper pissed off..
Then i asked him, "why?"
he said, "Nothing. u shld know"

Talking to him just puts me to sleep.
i asked him to do me a huge favour.
"Darling. stop indulging urself with food just because u're angrÿ you're just making me worried!"
He said, " theres nothing else i can do. just watch and eat.."

My gawd.. haiz...
To see him suffer just made things worse.
told him i couldnt return. not just yet.
he said, ïts okay i'll wait.
somehow i still think tt phrase was rather full of BULL.
bUT at least i feel happy when i hear it. =p

my onlyone.
she's full of BULL!
sweet-talker-mother-fucker.
haha. WHAT A LOSER!
okay i understand now!
SEE LARH! i told u not to go to that extend!
SEE LARH! degil right...
now what??! update me!
I wanna know what happened???!

Lisa!
lisa doesnt read my blog.
she never does. haiz.. boring!
ahaha... gonna miss that kekecohan of hers next year.
Will be all alone now next year.
haha... but its okay.
i'll just hope for the best in ur livess.
i'll hope u get the happiness that u wanted.
NEVER give up on ur education, coz its one of the key to success!
Love!love!

Atika!
Stay strong darling...
i know u love him. and i know he loves u to..
eventhough i might not know anything.
but seeing the 2 of u together and how comfortable u were around each other..
just puts a smile in my face.
i'll just go ,öuh my gawd... sooo sweet! *smiles!*

My Girls!
Apparently suddenly i feel like i've lost contact with you girls.
suddenly i dun know what's happening with you girls.
Sooo far i've only been meeting up with cicak.
As usual "STUDY"
Where are the rest?
Whats new?
Hot stories?
Update me with ur lives!

I love you bitches!

Dear darling..
i may be cheating myself.
and i know u know everything
I KNOW u aint that dumb.
Tell me the truth.
I know u're insecure.
I just want you to voice it out.
So much for saying im with the HUGE ego.
Well yours is as equavalent.
I need time.
I need time to open up to u..
I need time for u to understand everything.
I need time for you to just listen and absorb.
I need time to change my surroundings.
I need time. and all i need is TIME.

The very past whom i've hurt so much.
gosh.
darling.. please dont change.
Honestly sincerely, its for your own good.
I dun want you to fall back in those days.
i dont want u to get into shits with ur family.
I dun want u to get hurt.
but then again... if that's what you seek hapiness in..
i cant give u my blessings coz i do not agree in ur ways.
But i guess all i can do is *smile*
and hope that you wont go too far out.

My dearest Lil boy.
I dunnoe what's happening to you.
Please do not get yourself in trouble.
Its been ages since i last get to talk to u personally.
Rember we all love you.
Remember i'll always try my best to surpport you.
But u have to help yourself....

Haiz.. some of these are just useless..
what's being posted may not even be visible to some of them
*shrugs*
nah.. its okay i guess...
at least i mange to let it all out.
*smiles*


Fall and try to stand upright again..
No matter how Difficult it maybe!

Love!love!