Now i dont think have anything for him anymore.
Ive cancelled the whole of sun.
Coz it was irritating that he's pushing everything to me.
Im damn pissed....

I get fucking pissed with the fact that im the one whom have to initiate the whole idea.
I have to initiate telling him my whereabouts.
Of which i find it fucking annoying coz he doesnt.

He didnt even tell me the truth about him going out with another girl.
Of which i have to... with who where etc...
and im sure he's contacting another girl...
Im, just....
Just fucking PISSED!

I dont know why it seems like im the one chasing madly after him...
I dont know...
i always have this regret in me, everytime this happens.
He doesnt care now.
so why should i fucking care.

Im soo pissed i just feel like crying.
urghhh..
Boyfriend's going DXO tonight.
Initially he wanted me to tag, until he called not wanting me to be there.
I didnt mind, until he told me that he's going with his Bike fwens.
haiz.. like WHAT THE FUCK...

for sure there will be a fight.
like seriously. haiz... ouh well..
im sure he's BIG enough to use his BRAINS.
if he ever has one.

Im just looking foward for the 15th..
Though i have nobody to come over and watch me.. haha
at least i have my girls..
*shrugs*