Wrong word used.
seriously, using that word on me is just so wrong.
like seriously WRONG.
just because you have control over me
doesnt mean u could insult me to that extend.
yes i do know that i dont have the rights to rebel
but sometimes there are limits to everything.

Like drilling holes on the wall...
when u drill too many holes on the walls it may
still stand strong. but sometimes.
If the holes u drill are just too deep,
the wall might just collapse.

Met endi coz i didnt wanna stay at home.
went to khatib had lunch with him and met yaya.
then dearest zaini called and asked if i wanted to go for ice cream
dragged yaya along for ice cream and drove around town.
went over to check out dempsey road.
but it was kinda quiet. so we decided to drive around.
Reached home around 12.
Couldnt be bothered to pick up their calls.

everything was soo fake.
i love it.
the whole facade thingy is building in me.
i love it.
it sounds sadistic but,
i love it.

Knowing me, i never like to share my problems around.
the only person i can just vent out everything to was her.
but still, haha... it was never the full story.
I just thought that i could hold on to it.
i just thought i could continue the facade.
But apparently i cant.
I cant help it.
it was already pouring.

I teared on the bike otw for lunch
I teared in the car on the way to town.
both done silently.
without anyone noticing.
DAMN im good...

I just cant help it. its just supper annoying,
they say, "no body can care for you and be worried for u except us"
And the contradicting part is,
they never trsut you and even call u names upon assumptions.
Thinking that you're still young and STUPID.
all they said was, we wanted the best for u and only the best.
But they never could really understand the meaning of the best.
they never really understand the meaning of growing up
in a different environment.
they always compare u with others, and the best part is.
they compare you with themselves.

attacking every single thing that they could attack,
all they did say was,
all you can do is to hurt me and nothing else.
but they never knew how fucking huge my ego is.
even if they do, i dont think they are doing anything about it.
wait, why should they in the 1st place?
Rebellious is who i am. I can be a bitch yes i know.
sometimes when you keep soo many things in u..
there will be a point of time where u just have to burst.
that was just a mini eruption.
theres more to come.

But being me, i'd rather keep it to myself till the day comes again.
thats when both parites will regret.
and the whole process will repeat.
Its a repeated cycle every year.
and every half a year it will repeat again.
in one way or another.
It doesnt matter if you lie or dont.
Coz they dont even trust u in the 1st place.
they said they know everything.
all i can say is. GOOD! lead my life then.
PREDICT MY FUTURE since you know everything.
And since you know everything,
why should i lie? you know what i did.

thanx but no thanx.
I may seem naive to u.
but plz, im not THAT FUCKING STUPID.
yes i have all these boys.
BUT WHO THE FUCK ARE THEY?
theres a fucking thick line between having lots of boy friends
then have nothing better to do and shagg around.
A bitch doesnt have to be a whore.
like seriously. IF THATS WHAT YOU THINK.
then im sorry!
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