♥ now shes STRONGER, now shes STANDING TALL ♥

she smiles in their presence..
the journey home, she sinks back to depression..
she dun noe whats happening to her..
she wans to let em out but she cant seem to do so..
why?! shes frustrated with herself.. the pain is killing her..
God take it awae.. please give mie the strength to help her..
God please keep her happy, return her smiles,
give her back her genuine laughter..
darling i dun noe exactly whats happening inside of euu..
the turmoil euu are facing,
i can just pray dat euu can find the wae out..
i noe euu dun wan to cry if possible..
euu dun wan us to see ur tears..
euu dun wan to show ur broken heart..
drop the huge ego of urs..
ive seen euu without the ego and...
euu are better dat wae..
but i love euu the wae euu are..
with or without the ego, i will alwaes care fer euu..
but darling...
again let mie reming euu dat crying isnt a sign of weakness..
the strongest fall at tymes..
the onli different is dat the strongest of em
fight to get back on their feets after the fall,
no matter how hard and painful it may be..
we are onli human.. we need sumtymes need help..
dats why God created friends..
euu haf been dere to help mie..
why not now, euu allow mie to lend euu a helping hand?
darling i noe its easier to sae diz..
be strong! euu can do it.. maybe. . . .
its just a matter of tyme..
and maybe with forgiveness fer those whu did euu wrong,
euu might feel alil lighter..
take the mean werds to be a form of motivation..
dun let it bring euu down..
dun give two shyts about em..
they are not euu, they dun even noe euu!
its ur lyfe, ur choice..! remember..
how euu live ur lyfe is a choice.. make the choice wisely alryte..
dun just follow meekly the flow of lyfe..
euu will not differ from a zombie..*loves*


Thanx for the entry.
Thanx for the encouraging words.
I did seek for forgiveness to them i've did wrong.
i guess i AM just frustrated with myself
to allow myself to go thru shits that i thought i'd never go thru.
serves me right.
i rmbred his words.
he always said this to me,
"bebual jgn suke habis gitu jek. u may nvr know what will happen"
"Drop your ego, nanti makan diri sendiri "
and i'll always convince him and myself tt i wont fall for it.
i wont suffer from it.
and this is what happens. ASS!
Nobody's bringing me down i guess..
i guess im just bringing myself down.
too tired to even live with such life.
seriously, how i wish i could start over and never be exposed to this.
BUt then again.. im happy that i went thru these shits.
at least i'll take this as a learning point and not repeat the shits in the future.
I dun wanna play around now.
the gate is closed now.
I only have them beside me.
Them whom i can turn to.
Them whom knows me the best one way or another.
Especially you. THANKIU.