some stuff just bother me.
iM not changing to the fact of the existence of this new guy.
i know that u just hate the thought of it.
but hey i was never sure about us anyway.
After opening up to u alot.. i just feel that im inferior to u.
Ure a nice guy. i have to admit.
a supper nice guy and a nice friend.
Dude'! u deserve someone way better than me.

I wont be surprised if after hearing all this u choose to leave.
Im seriously okay with it.
I'll totally understand.
Not even THEY know. and im sure u know.
No u're not one of my past fancy collections.
and no. i dont think that u should be amongst them.

Darling the clues are clear.
Yes im pushing u away.
yes im trying to distance myself from u.
Yes! im being a total bitch again.
like i said there's more than just
This side of me. seriously...
Im sorry.. i do admit im starting to like you..
But i guess after hearing ur past r/s.
I just cant make myself to do it.
i just cant make myself to just start afresh with u.

The fact is. im still not over him,
i still miss him, i still do.
Its just soo uber difficult to tell u the truth.
its just me. i just dunnoe how to open up when it comes to this.
i dun want u to feel like a fool.
I just dont.

The thought of it is just sad.
here i am talking to u on the fon.
here i am letting it all out.
letting it out in silence.
how i just wish u'd hear it out babe. seriously.
Im giving up on it. seriously i am...
No more! i just dont wanna continue being this way.
its just tiring. its just not me.

I give up.. i SERIOUSLY DO..
*tears*