the day that ive never expected to happen.
and it soo happened.
now i think things might be going a little out of hand.
how now?! like seriously OMG!!
i so understand that its the holiday season.
but! but! but~!
Shit!
Im just gonna pray that it doesnt go too deep.
too deep that it will bleed again.


Im still trying to achieve my goals.
but i think things just go out of hand.
Fun has no limits sometimes.
I NEED TO GET A FREAKING JOB SOON!
GET MYSELF OCCUPIED.

East coast tomorrow!
gosh. place filled with memories.
never will it be forgotten.
never will things ever be the same again.
i just hope its not at "our" so called place.
I think it could just tear me apart.

not that i dont want u.
i refuse to have u.
not that ure not good enough.
i think i've hurt people enough.
not that i dont like you.
i seriously love ur company.

but the thing is,
i cant have you.
i just cant have you.
i just dont want to.
let us just be the way it is.
just hope that you dont hate me for this.
an early christmas gift to u.
i just hope for the best for u.
*cross fingers*
*pray hard*
(i so pray hard that u dont come crashing down and just stay strong)