Its so freaking weird the fact that im surpose to hate u like mad,

and yet this annoying sub-concious mind of mine

is replaying moments we shared.

I could still remember wad happened when we we out together since day one.

the time that i knew you were gonna be the BESTEST guy friend that any girl could ever have.

and those times when we were actually together.

Despite all the guys that im mingling with,

Despite me having to meet someone whom ive suffered for 2 years

trying to get over him,

Its like no longer the same anymore.

The fact that i used to be able to share all my stories with.

Eventhough my gf is always there to hear my stories.

But its not the same.

Whenever i go to our place,

take ecp or pasir ris park for an instance,

it would always slip my tongue that ive been here with u before.

the fact that i dunnoe what the fuck is wrong with myself.

Im surpose to be hating u right now.

and now i feel so silly when this is happening.

and when they say im the weirdest.

Like what u used to say, "they seriously dont know how close we were"

now i feel idiotic.

Penning this down.

Coz somehow i just know that ure gonna read it.

And i guess it'll make me feel better in a way.

and no, not that i wanna enter your life anymore.

im sorry to say that.

coz i just dont wannna make things worse ( tho i guess i already have)

but yarh..

I wonder how ure doing now.

like seriously, i hope ure coping well.

and yarh, at least i hope that ure happier now.

meeting him later, after 2 years.

excited not really.. But im still looking forward though.

I think im going crazy, hahaha. the fact that im thinking of these even when im surposedly having fun.

This is suppper annoying i must say,

But yeah, im going to bed now.

i hope that ure happy this time around,

and moving on with ur life smoothly.

Take care and goodbye my dearest friend.

For all those memories we shared, i thank you a million times.

For those days u made me feel special and like a princess.

I thank you for that.

and i pray that u'll find someone way better than me and not repeat the same mistake in falling for a girl who's eventually gonna hurt you.

i dont wanna see u get hurt anymore.

as much as i tried not to be one of them in the past, i guess i failed miserably.

All the best to u.

=)