and when the past came back...
everything seemed like a mess... but at that very moment of time i somehow knew what i wanted.
Though i did regret certain things the fact that i might have lost a pinch of hapiness with someone i used to love and the fact that he could now provide me wadever i demand for doesnt change everything.

And i pity myself the fact that i allowed myself to get so annoyed with the situation to the extend of venging my anger to him who's pretty much innocent. and when they say, Sometimes its good to keep the truth to urself coz it might just hurt the other party like mad. and the fact that i just had to tell him the truth was difficult enough. What more the akwardness afterthat. But im glad that my dear boy is patient enough to accept everything slowly eventhough it was crazy.

Ouh wells.